Don't Give Up and Not Slow Down

Tonight I've been feeling the melancholy of everything and it just hit me. I've realized my posts have been somewhat depressing and stuff..well here's another one.

those feeling when you want to give up.

 Today, I was given some news that would probably be a change. Some peeps cried, I cried and just the thought of it, is hard to imagine.
Such is life right? It's not permanent, only for season. But I just wished there was a better outcome. I guess this was another thing to add on to my worries. I'm honestly just at a loss for words. You don't even know the sadness I had.
  Although this seems like a time where everything is going wrong, I believe it was also a blessing in disguise from God. I think He wants me to step up my game, especially in a time where I wanna do nothing BUT give up.  Actually since this week started, although I've felt happier than last week, I feel like the devil has attacked me, especially during the times where I was weak and just gave in to my weaknesses. But I feel like this is a good time to start becoming stronger; spiritually as well as physical. I want to be the light in a dark world and I know I'm not alone. I also got people who will keep me accountable to my actions and how I live my life.

  So as of now, it still sucks, but I'm going to be positive about it all and know that God has something in store and I'm ready to embrace whatever He has for me. As Mitch says, "This isn't the end, it's just the beginning," or something like that.

Peace and Reassurance

         Do you know what I love?
I love being able to show the real me to friends I really trust and be able to express my true feelings. It makes me realize I depend on my church family more than I realize. I know that I can count on them for prayer and for comfort. Not that my family canNOT give this to me because they can, but there are similar friends who are just dealing with the same things as me or similar to me. There was that definite reassurance tonight as my friend's prayed for me and we prayed for each other. I'm really glad I can count on them and I trust them like you wouldn't believe.
So although tonight (Thursday) was emotionally draining for me, I feel at peace and had a reassured confirmation that everything will work out and God has a bigger plan for me. Whatever I'm going through, it's happening for a reason and I just need to trust in Him.







~~Trusting in God~~

Rainbows of peace

Crisis averted. All I can say is that prayer is amazingly powerful!
Prayer helped me a lot...right now it helped me.

Praise God for He is good all the time, all the time God is good!

After prayer I feel so relaxed and at peace (my mind).

Sad but true...?

You know what really kills me? When you have that awesome dream and you wake up and realize you returned back to reality. I hate that.

I had a dream about him again. Seriously miss him. And you know what else sucks? He probably doesn't feel the same way about me. I really hope he'll eventually come to like me, aheh.
I can wait. I usually do anyway...
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Usually the story of my life.

But then again, I don't mind being friends. Blaaah. Crushes are so..blah. Really..BLAAAH.

Ok I'm done lol.

What's New with Me?! Anime that's what.

Back. And this week: I'm being a total anime nerd :P

Haha. 2 Weeks ago I watched nothing but dramas, last week I watched nothing but Boyfriend (K-pop band) videos, and this week?

Inuyasha is what I've been watching. The show is old and has a really bad worldview but it's soo good! I wish it wasn't so awesome! The storyline is original, character development? There definitely is development from the first episode! I do believe this is something I want to vlog about. I will add it to my list.

Oh yah! About my vlogs, the only thing about me vlogging is I'm still learning how to edit videos and what not, so my vids will probably, most likely, be raw. So no fancy edits or cuts. The original and non edited version. Until I figure how to edit videos of course!

Anyways...off to watch something before going bed.
Ttfn :)

Awesome day

So Sunday was awesome! I got to video call w/my friend Joy and group call w/her and Jacob! Woop! Idk I had fun even though it was short.

And work wasn't that bad either. I'm slowly learning and getting it! So I'm gaining some confidence. Ohh and after work, had a video call w/Micah, Joy's brother. That was fun. There wasn't much talking but hey! We played Songpop on FB, caught up, and showed videos. And I haven't talked to him in a while so it was ALL gee! :D

Now I just need to vid call w/Caitlin and Joy. The best friends reunion haha. ;) oohh and our little tea part online lolz.

I had to take a picture. It was a memorable time xD haha

JOB JOB JOB?

I have NOT updated in forever!! I could say I was busy which is like, the HALF truth, but I'll say the full truth: I was lazy. I didn't feel like typing >.>

Anywho, since it was awhile ago since I blogged, I have awesome news! I got the job at Coffee Bean! Chee-HOOO~~
It was awesome! I mean I got the job on ze spot. And it's great, I mean, I get free coffee. Who doesn't love free coffee? I get a discount when off the job. I have great, funny, and patient co-workers. And my hours aren't that bad. Five hours? Shootz man ;) Haha.

The only stressful thing is knowing the abbreviations of the drinks, handling the register and knowing exactly where everything is on that dang screen, memorizing drinks and how to make them, making hot drinks, stemaing milk(yes, there is way to steaming milk) and making sure I know the Po'osomething rules as a worker of Coffee Bean. That's a lot to do and the tasks that us workers have to do is a lot more than people think than us JUST making coffee. I know in time I'll get it. But still yet, the least they could do for the "new people" is to put us through some sort of training before throwing us in a store O.o
Yah really?
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Okay. Rant over.
Haha but aside from that, I feel blessed that I have a job. I never would have guessed I would be working at my family's favorite coffee store haha!
But yeah, so until next time...See ya!

P.s. (Don't be afraid to leave a comment. It would make me happy!)